i hate myselft. just hate hate hate HATE! im crying now. can't help it, i feel like a baby. it feels like I'm stumbling in the dark, stumble and fall. i miss my boyfriend. much. why can't i be like them? I feel like a traitor. i burn, my skin burns. i'll break down, disappear. be gone forever. will anyone miss me then? will anyone remember me at all? oh, god help me understand this. i cannot live, i cannot die, i cannot just be me. NEED A CHANGE.
thanks for listening.