Christmas time
oh, i dunno what to say.. seriosly. im a bad girl, bad bad bad. not only in terms of eating.. fuck. i really hate myself, but i can't help.. i just want him.. all the time. and badly.. i don't mean my boyfriend. i wanna love my boyfriend, but he donen't make me happy.. he dosen't make me feel good. OH GOD, what should i do!? please.. i wanna live with my boyfriend, i don't wanna be unfaithful :'( i want a future with him, not with.. him.
At Cchristmas, i haven't eaten any food .. just cookies. it sucks. i know. but yesterday i just ate about 400 calories. proud. today i have only been drinking black coffee.
At Cchristmas, i haven't eaten any food .. just cookies. it sucks. i know. but yesterday i just ate about 400 calories. proud. today i have only been drinking black coffee.
today
binge!
I HATE CHRISTMAS
I HATE CHRISTMAS
today
binge
today
= 2000 calories ...
today
=1000 calories
yesterday
=900 calories
yesterday
+ 200 - porridge x2
+ 65 - carrots, beans
+ 60 - apple
+ 66 - pear
= 391 calories
+ 65 - carrots, beans
+ 60 - apple
+ 66 - pear
= 391 calories
- walking
one thing i wanna tell
i have a sore throat, i just wanna disappear. it's a thing i've to tell you, dear diary.. but i don't know if im ready, i'm a horrible person. Oh!! Why can't life be easy? Why does this happened? :(
today
+ 100 - porridge
+ 120 - two apples
+ 70 - grated carrots and beans
+ 180 - diet drink
= 470 calories
+ 120 - two apples
+ 70 - grated carrots and beans
+ 180 - diet drink
= 470 calories
- walking
today
+ 50 - flakes porridge
+ 62 - grated carrots
+ 120 - two apples
+ 36 - red paprika
+ 180 - diet drink
= 448 calories
- walking
- 50 situps
+ 62 - grated carrots
+ 120 - two apples
+ 36 - red paprika
+ 180 - diet drink
= 448 calories
- walking
- 50 situps
clean
puh! keep holding on
today
starts fine..
= about 1000 calories
= about 1000 calories
today
+ 100 - porridge
+ 140 - apple x2
=240 calories
+ 140 - apple x2
=240 calories
- walking
today
binge
today
+ 300 - crude flake porridge x3
+ 130 - two apples
= 430 calories
+ 130 - two apples
= 430 calories
- nothing
yesterday
hate this shit.
today
+ 200 - flakes pudding x2
+ 340 - five apples
+ 500 - panncakes
+ 200 - bread
= 1240 calories :(
+ 340 - five apples
+ 500 - panncakes
+ 200 - bread
= 1240 calories :(
feel so sick
i feel like im going to throw up everything i just ate. i dunno if i can live with myself anymore, its a fucking shame to est this much. hate myself. my whole budy just hating me right now. please god.. kill me.
no :(
im not pround about today.. but i wasn't over 600 calories. i think im crazy!
today
+ 200 - flakes pudding x2
+ 210 - three apples
+ 75 - grated carrots and some beans
+ 15 - egg white
+ 20 - tomato
+ 20 - paprika
+ 35 - cookie :(
= 575 calories
+ 210 - three apples
+ 75 - grated carrots and some beans
+ 15 - egg white
+ 20 - tomato
+ 20 - paprika
+ 35 - cookie :(
= 575 calories
- 50 situps
today
+ 100 - flakes pudding
+ 140 - two apples
= 240 calories
+ 140 - two apples
= 240 calories
- 50 situps
plz..
i just wanna dissapear. now, now, now. please god :'(((
hey, stop ignore me
today
binge
it was great
yesterday was great, i know i ate to much but it was great anyway! i was with my boyfriend and we did a lot of things.. :) haha.. yea, i think you could guess what we did :)
kisses
kisses
yesterday
= 1200 calories.. i guess :c
- nothing
going great
everything's just fine. lovely!
today
+ 200 - flakes pudding x2
+ 140 - two apples
+ 60 - beans and grated carrots
= 400 calories
+ 140 - two apples
+ 60 - beans and grated carrots
= 400 calories
- 50 situps
today
im not able to write everything today, but i know how much calories..
= 580 calories
= 580 calories
- walking
