i throw up yesterday, it was not on purpose. it just came.

it's thursday for your information ;) i just wanna tell you how it's going for me..
monday: binge..
tuesday: nothing
wednesday: a quarter of a tomato and some avocado.

and today im gonna eat a quarter of a tomato every three hours. when you eat every three hours it will keeps you in time digestion

im sorry, i will update more than before.. promise. i've spent the morning at the hospital, but they can't find anything.. i feel sick. i havn't been in school all week and now it's wednesday. i'll be lagging behind in all subjects.. sux. im going to the gynecologist tomorrow, and that really scared me out. IM FUCKING SHAKING HERE.
help, please help.

shitshitshit.
im a fake.

im sorry i havn't write for a long time. life have been up and down.. atm it's down, very very far down. im fucing eating. all the fucking time. got to stop. nownownoooow. I CAN DO IT I KNOW.

lots of love to you.


yea, it's me on tha pic

vomit

i don't know if everything i'm writing is just some fucking shit.. but i don't care, i really have to write now. and if you don't wanna read it, don't! anyway.. i over-slept today, it fucking sucks 'cause i came 20 minutes late to the english-test vi had in this morning. but OF COURSE i had been practicing the wrong things.. everything's shit today, the weather too. it's slush-snow and rain, does it sounds nice? no no no.
i went home. of course, i'm so weak. why can't i be strong and stay in school? my head bangs again. and i feel faint. haven't eat anything for two days now. i ate some bread at tuseday but since then i've only been drinking tea, pepsi max, fun light juice, water .. how long can i go throw this? i hope no one will notice anything. in two days it's one-week holiday. and it's my birthday on tuseday. after the holiday, i promise myself; i'll be in school and not be sick or at home.

i hope.

soon i'll get my period and im gonna be sooo hungry for chocolate. just look at this.. soon it's valentine's day, and its just chocolate and hearts. my boyfriend isn't even at home. he's going ski. my birthday is the day after valentines day, i hope no one gives me chocolate!

my party was fucking awesome<33333333333333

im eating. im eating. im eating. help. im eating chocolate.

good morning beautiful!
i wake up around 05.40, 'cause my best friend texted me. haha.. usually i don't wake up of that sound, weird. but i couln't fell asleep again so i started to study! THATS WEIRD TOO! Anyway.. my day is fucking stressful today. no rest!

kisses

yeah, i swam today. and soon i'll yoga :D /like.

hell yeah! SCOOORE :D haven't eat today. im fine. im cold, but who cares? I'll weigh myself tomorrow.. im nervous.

nighty

im kind of.. happy (?). haha.. i really don't know, i think i should stop with this shit soon. stop to write just for the writing thing! im tired and school starts soon, we're gonna make our choice today, at 08.50 am. kind of scared. i drank tea for breakfast and yeasterday i juste ate some cake batter, i know its many calories in that.. i haven't eat for long time..!

kisses