today
+ 200 - flakes porridge x2
+ 60 - grated carrots and some beans
+ 60 - apple
+ 20 - egg white
= 340 calories
+ 60 - grated carrots and some beans
+ 60 - apple
+ 20 - egg white
= 340 calories
- 1 hour dance
- 50 situps
- 50 situps
today
+ 200 - flakes porridge x2
+ 210 - three apples
+ 60 - grated carrots and some beans
= 470 calories
+ 210 - three apples
+ 60 - grated carrots and some beans
= 470 calories
- 40 situps
feel good
yeah, i dunno why but i feel good today! i've eaten 300 calories today, i know it's just 5.00 pm but anyway!! feels good :) i've to study now.. sucks. but i got to do it!
kisses
kisses
today
+ 100 - flakes porridge
+ 70 - apple
= 170 calories
+ 70 - apple
= 170 calories
- 40 situps
new start tomorrow.
god, please help me. help me get throgh this! the only thing i wanna do is to get skinny, why can't i stop eating? i know im not overweight.. rather the opposite. but still, i wanna get thin. so why, why can't you help me? oh, god, im sorry for all the bad things i had ever done, im sorry if i disappointed you.. but please, forgive me :c
im looking forward to tomorrow, then i'll start over, again.
im looking forward to tomorrow, then i'll start over, again.
today
+ binge binge binge
trust me, this is the last day. NEVER MORE BINGE.
trust me, this is the last day. NEVER MORE BINGE.
- walking
yesterday
+ 130 - oatmeal
+ 140 - two apples
+ 90 - rice pudding
= 360 calories
+ 140 - two apples
+ 90 - rice pudding
= 360 calories
- 30 minutes dance
- 50 situps
- 50 situps
please, im sorry
i can't stand this situation. ****** hates me now, i dunno what to do :'( i just wanna be liked.. and i just wanna be liked for who i am, is that too much? i really need a hug right now. im scared, what if we don't become friends again.. i would die then :'(
no fever
today i've no fever. i feel kind of good i think! im home from school but on monday ill go, i promise. i've just eaten oatmeal and a apple for today, but its going to be more, but just little. trust me! i hope this weekend is going to be good, ive to performances and a dance-casting to do. feels good, i think! i have a problem, i dunno what i should buy to my boyfriend for chistmas! please, help me!!
kisses
kisses
today
+ about 1800 calories .. :c
- :c
hate my life.
i have already eaten 470 calories and the time is just 09.14 am. hate hate hate.
today
+ to much, to much, to much, to much...
- 20 minutes walking
bah
nothing was as i had planned.. fuck
yeah
its cold, as hell.. i don't wanna go out. its cold inside. its cold inside me! my skin don't burns anymore.. i got to do some tea. see yea
today
+ 260 - oatmeal x2
+ 140 - two apples
+ 40 - grated carrots
+ 23 - paprika, yellow
+ 15 - egg white
= 478 calories
+ 140 - two apples
+ 40 - grated carrots
+ 23 - paprika, yellow
+ 15 - egg white
= 478 calories
- 35 minutes walking
- 50 situps
- 50 situps
r u alive?
how do you know you just aren't in a dream? how could you know what's right and what's wrong? to kill somebody, to shout somebody, to see someone die. is that a crime? to take someone's life is that the same thing as giving someone's death? curiosity is a word i love. i am so fucking curious all the time, my boyfriend says that.
what are you dreaming about? i can ask you once, twice.. but i'll never get an answer. i know that. cause' you can't tell me the answer. i love the song what a wonderful world of Katie Melua. it's about a world, a good world. a world i wanna live in. and i think to myself what a wonderful world...
what are you dreaming about? i can ask you once, twice.. but i'll never get an answer. i know that. cause' you can't tell me the answer. i love the song what a wonderful world of Katie Melua. it's about a world, a good world. a world i wanna live in. and i think to myself what a wonderful world...
i'll always be a fairy
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3 days, bad girl
fuck this. why can't i? in three days have i eaten to much, and thats really to much! fuck. today for example .. oatmeal, cream, spinach soup.. :c okey, tomorrow will be better i hope!
wish me good luck
wish me good luck
weekend
my best friend have been here all weekend so i haven't wrote. i've eaten so fucking much :cc
today
+ 130 - oatmeal
+ 60 - apple
+ 20 - egg white
+ 13 - tomato
+ 550 - cream
= 773 calories
+ 60 - apple
+ 20 - egg white
+ 13 - tomato
+ 550 - cream
= 773 calories
- 40 minutes walking
- 50 situps
- 50 situps
07.07 am
im kid of tired, but it dosen't matter. its english-test today.. :c i don't look forward to it. i've study a little yesterday, and read a bit now. just wish me good luck! :D
today
+ 260 - oatmeal x2
+ 210 - 3 apples
+ 23 - paprika
+ 45 - salat
= 538 calories
+ 210 - 3 apples
+ 23 - paprika
+ 45 - salat
= 538 calories
- 50 situps
morning!
kind of tired! but i got to go to school soon.
kisses
kisses
today
+ 130 calories - oatmeal
+ 140 calories - two apples
+ 45 calories - salat
= 315 calories
+ 140 calories - two apples
+ 45 calories - salat
= 315 calories
- nothing
breakfast
i just woke up. i've get dressed, im wearing a white mini-dress (looks like something you wear at christmas) and grey jeans! Now its time for my oatmeal :) today in school we're going to some museum, a design exhibition. i dunno if its gonna be fun, but i hope :)
kisses
kisses
today
+ 130 calories - oatmeal
+ 70 calories - apple
+ 76 calories - three paprikas
= 276 calories
+ 70 calories - apple
+ 76 calories - three paprikas
= 276 calories
- at least 300 calories - gym
- 1 hour dance
- 2,5 hours shopping
- 1 hour dance
- 2,5 hours shopping
Yes, i can!
today is a good day. i was in the city with ***** and bought christmas gifts! :) awesome.
hugs
hugs
feel good :)
hey guys!
i just arrived home, i've been in the gym :) it was awesome, i fought as hell! and afterwards i felt like i could collapse.. seriously, it was a nice feeling! now i'll get dressed.
kisses
i just arrived home, i've been in the gym :) it was awesome, i fought as hell! and afterwards i felt like i could collapse.. seriously, it was a nice feeling! now i'll get dressed.
kisses
today
+ 130 calories - oatmeal
+ 160 calories - two glasses of milk
+ 60 calories - coffee with milk
+ i might eat one apple too
= 350 calories (425 with apple)
+ 160 calories - two glasses of milk
+ 60 calories - coffee with milk
+ i might eat one apple too
= 350 calories (425 with apple)
- nothing
i've to write, sorry
why am i still alive?`cuz i got the best friends in the whole fucking world. and i got my lovely boyfriend. i live for them, they are my life. i don't care about school, seriously.. ofcourse i wanna have good grades but i care more about being thin and beautiful. i know i'll get so disappointed in myself when i have my grades in my hand. i know i'll to cry. but still, i can't care. its engraved in my skin;
don't eat, you've to be perfect.
when you're like air, you're almost perfect.
you can't eat that, you're too fat.
you're not worth that food.
it echoes in my head, over and over again. can't help it. your hands are everywhere. i walk beside you but falling behind, i can't run more. my dreams are lost and yours are invisible. how do i do?
don't eat, you've to be perfect.
when you're like air, you're almost perfect.
you can't eat that, you're too fat.
you're not worth that food.
it echoes in my head, over and over again. can't help it. your hands are everywhere. i walk beside you but falling behind, i can't run more. my dreams are lost and yours are invisible. how do i do?
god, where are you?
just binge binge binge. allt day long. fuck it. god, if you're up there, please help me. i REALLY need your help. :( i can't stop eating. its a shame!
i've to pull myself
what the fuck is happening!??! :ccc
stressed
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today
wanna die
today
calories
+ 130 - oatmeal
+ 62 - grated carrots
+ 61 - beans
+ 46 - paprika
+ 130 - oatmeal
= 429 calories
+ 130 - oatmeal
+ 62 - grated carrots
+ 61 - beans
+ 46 - paprika
+ 130 - oatmeal
= 429 calories
- 1 hour shopping
hey darlings
Schools out and im finally home. i've handle myself good today! and im not hungry :DD drinking tea right now, im going to study some math later.. or i've to do it right now.. but haha! no :)
eaten calories yet: 300 calories :)
eaten calories yet: 300 calories :)
yesterday
calories
+ i dunno... maybe around 1400 .. :(
+ i dunno... maybe around 1400 .. :(
- 1 hour dance
today
calories
+ 130 - oatmeal
+ 40 - grated carrots
+ 25 - some beans
+ 150 - two apples
= 345 calories
+ 130 - oatmeal
+ 40 - grated carrots
+ 25 - some beans
+ 150 - two apples
= 345 calories
- 1 hour dance
- 20 minutes badminton
- 20 minutes biking
- 20 minutes badminton
- 20 minutes biking
new thoughts!
hey you
shower, brb
dunno what to wear!
oh, help me choose! i dunno what to wear tonight. i wanna look lovely, wonderful, beautiful.. a dress had been nice, a slim dress. i wanna look skinny. By the way! i haven't ate yet :) proud. But now, i have to choose!
kisses
kisses
yesterday
i forgot it yesterday! so here it is.
+ 180 - calories diet drink
+ 140 - 2 apples
= 320 calories
+ 180 - calories diet drink
+ 140 - 2 apples
= 320 calories
- 30 minutes biking
my goal
i wanna weight around 115 punds at first. then i wanna get slimmer. and slimmer.
need a change
i love changes. can't help it. i dyed my hair last week, and i really like it. Pretty blonde!
Right now i drink diet drink, it's my lunch. it contains only 180 caloriers, and i haven't ate anything else today. i feel good. i was out biking before :)
i've my period now so i dare not weigh myself. But when it ends i'll do it!
btw im sorry i haven't write for a long time. i don't really know why i haven't! i've done so much stuff and know its the autumn holiday! i just say awesome!!
kisses
Right now i drink diet drink, it's my lunch. it contains only 180 caloriers, and i haven't ate anything else today. i feel good. i was out biking before :)
i've my period now so i dare not weigh myself. But when it ends i'll do it!
btw im sorry i haven't write for a long time. i don't really know why i haven't! i've done so much stuff and know its the autumn holiday! i just say awesome!!
kisses
